Lord, since I asked my mother about You, and she
couldn’t answer,
I’ve been looking for those answers.
Our relationship has been a rollercoaster ride.
At first, we were like one
Especially, the day I ate Your flesh and drank Your blood.
Followed by when I received Your spirit,
It was like You were the centre of my universe, in fact You are.
Secondly, I drifted away from You.
So much that I couldn’t talk to You and say thank you.
I felt as though I was worthless to You; how wrong was I.
Thirdly, I tried to get back to You.
I did,
You were becoming my centre and
I felt like at first;
I could travel round the universe and you will be showing me.
But now, like the second, I am drifting away from You.
Don’t let me go.
Hold me tight
If I keep on drifting, hold me saying:
Hang on, you can’t go away from me.
Lord, I want to be the salt of the earth
When people see me, they see You, the light.
Then, sinners will return to You.
I want to come back to you, and be very happy.
Lord, I’ve been very bad.
You have done a lot for me.
Always been there for me and I have not been appreciative.
I can’t even say thank you.
Lord, I want to be more appreciative.
You are my best friend.
I can’t lose You.
From now on, I want to say thank you.
I want to talk more and more often to you, and be closer to you.
Adaudo Anyiam-Osigwe from her book of poems Words from Beyond when Crying for Myself: Musings of Childhood